Finish

Here is another wierd thing about me. Most won't be surprised to know that I do not like to finish things. Becci had my number within a week of knowing me. On two seperate games nights we were partaking of some coffee and dessert. The second night she is clearing my cup and plate and says, HUH...
What?
Well have you ever noticed that you don't finish your coffee or dessert? she says.
Umm...no...no I didn't. I mean...no I don't do that...I finish them most times.
Ok, but you haven't the last two times we have had coffee and dessert.
Hmmm...I don't think I do.
So you know where this is going....turns out she was correct...I do not finish my coffee or dessert. I am not a finisher. I am a starter. I love to start things...I am not fond of finishing them. I finish races...but I hate that. I love all the time spent training for races but I am terribly disappointed with finishing them.
When chapters of our lives finish I tend to get a bit sad and reflect on how we could do it better. I usually need to convince myself to look on the bright side and see the positive on what is new and upcoming.
Becci likes to anaylyze why I won't finish my dessert...but she cannot figure out why I don't finish the coffee. I really have no clue for either.
Certain things, though, I love to finish. I love baking and cooking- so preparing, making and finishing a meal brings me great joy. I am good at this and so I like having it finished.
Finishing other projects, like essays and reports does not bring me joy. Most would feel the sense of accomplishment, whereas I feel the sense of things could be done better. If only there were more time to put better work into it or more research. Once I finish a project and look back at it I become so critical of how I could have done it better.
I think of how Jesus was hanging on the cross. He asked for a drink because His flesh was thirsty and then took the sip and said, "It is finished". He was confident up to his death. He knew His work was done and done right.
I need to have the confidence to finish things...see them through the tough spots and cross the finish line with joy.
Lent update: Still going strong! No Chips and No Bitterness... Bad news is I replaced them both with ice cream :o)
Taa taa for now
Kimmy